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Updated on Tuesday, April 15

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QUESTION: Have you ever doubted your sanity? Legitimately?

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  1. Compared to what though? You can't know you're insane.. once you know it's automatically transmuted

    Isn't everyone insane to some degree. We have been pumped with thousands of ideas and concepts since birth, and everyone lives and perceives a different world. Once we figure out the foundation that is beyond our conditioning.. isn't that the reality?

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    1. another dog barking in the corner thinking they know something about mental health

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    2. ^ nah you're right.. I ultimately don't know anything. Nor do you though, so it's fine.

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  2. Yup. I went through a major crisis shortly after high school and was very close to checking myself into the mental hospital because I didn't feel I could trust myself.

    I also have severe anxiety issues that cause me to go into manic states where I feel completely out of control. But once it subsidies, I realize life is fine.

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  3. Partially.

    Sometimes.

    Never enough to consider checking myself into a hospital.

    Sometimes I just hear voices in my head ya know.

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  4. All the time, sometimes I convince myself I am the only person who is real and everyone else is a figment of my imagination.

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  5. OP here, glad to see I'm not the only one. I just hope one day we don't just lose our shit altogether hah.
    I think 1.a got it. Counselling said I think too much. Fishing helps, but I don't know how to think less. So I radically changed my thoughts. It's delusion, but it's willing. And that makes it real for me. I'm happy because I decide to be. My normal is not happy. If I stop trying, things get very dark. I think that's just the conditioning I've gone through since birth, and all of us do of some kind or another. Nothing to do but to break that conditioning, right?
    I'd also like to take a moment to thank the posters of any and all replies, past and potentially in the future. And also just appreciate you. You who is reading this, however you stumbled on this. If you clicked the question, it may have been of some relevance to you. I can honestly say I love you. I don't care where you've been. I just care where you're going, I promise you. Choose and decide and try and think and rationalize your way out of anything you might be going through. I realize depression plays such a big part in so many of our lives nowadays, with our knowing or not. It gets really hard, but I can't tell you how not alone you are. Regardless of what you've been through and are going through, have some of my happiness and love, here. There's so much to go around, and it doesn't diminish when you share it. It's pretty fantastic. :D
    Sometimes it's as easy as http://make-everything-ok.com/ <3

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    1. Keeping mental illnesses in check requires constant vigilance. Constant noting of triggers, constant self care, and constant control of depressive/negative thoughts.

      It's not delusion in my mind. It's how you enter remission.

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  6. OP again, 5.a thanks for your reply ! Do you think I should seek help still? I haven't been to counselling or therapy in quite some time. I'm not on any meds because I did extremely well with just counselling for the longest time. And I'm still doing good. I just went through a lot in a condensed time period. I dealt with it badly at first, but I'm actually doing good. I have difficulty feeling emotions sometimes, and I really space out. But I still have regular experiences of ups and downs most of the time. I also really started taking care of myself more. Now it's just consistency, I think.

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    1. OP, I understand you completely. This seems to be a point in most human's development. We grow up with all these ideas and beliefs and we eventually get lost in them. We believe our character. Everything you said touched by humans was created by thought. Positive thinking is still delusion though and may continue your suffering. I cannot tell you how to find reality, but you will seek it when you are ready. Continue getting help if necessary, but there is a deeper purpose to depression/anxiety than we all think.

      I sincerely wish you all the best :)

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    2. ^ everything you see that was touched by humans**

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    3. ^ oh, and I am not 5a, someone else :D

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  7. Can't do it 6.a. Couldn't handle it, can't handle it. Things start to spiral. OP here. I'm going with 5.a. But man, 6.a...please change the world a little.

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    1. It will spiral, because it must. It's the end of your world, it really is. But what happens if you let is spiral to the depth? What is left? Your illusionary reality will be gone, but what will be left when you completely surrender to it?

      I cannot change the world, the world is perfect as it. It's perfect because it can't be any other way - perfect is just a concept anyway. This moment is all there ever is, and all there ever will be. You just have to notice and realize for yourself.. The more you try to control negative thoughts, the more they persist.. that which is resisting is actually that which is creating. The truth is available to everyone once we are receptive to it. I will let you contemplate the rest. Again, all the best!

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    2. 5a here. I don't agree. I've done a great job managing my depressive and negative thoughts. Don't start the spiral. It's dangerous. It's unnecessary. Depressive thoughts are irrational. They don't make sense. They seem real in your mind but in the end, they don't make sense. Even though you think they do.

      OP taking care of yourself is so important. Counselling is probably a good idea. You really have nothing to lose.

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    3. When I say control my negative thoughts.. I mean think about why you feel that way at that moment. What triggered that thought? How can I avoid this in the future? Does this thought make sense? Am I being irrational?

      I know it's so hard but it really does help.

      Like right now. I feel super shitty. I'm a recovering drug addict (significant sober time) and my cravings are
      outrageous right now. I know what is causing this. I'm tired as fuck, hungry, and stressed about exams. Why do I want drugs? To relieve the stress. But that's a fucking myth because if I get high/drunk I'm just going to feel more anxiety and stress. My brain says 'this will help' but in reality I know it won't. That's where my sanity comes in. I have to trust what I know to be rational rather than what my addict brain is trying to tell me in the moment.

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    4. 7.a here - This is really great to hear. You are becoming conscious of your thoughts. You're able to separate you from your mind. A lot of people believe in their thoughts and to know you are able to observe your thoughts is a big step. You may react though.. this is a practice. Keep observing, let them happen. Thoughts won't hurt you, they are a phenomenon going though your consciousness.

      I understand 7.b. Depressive thoughts are very irrational. What I meant by letting thing spiral was let yourself fall.. but don't fall with it.. like I said, you can observe your thoughts objectively. If you don't resist it, these thought will flow through without resistance to fuel it, your mind will then calm. I understand this sounds abstract to many people with depression/anxiety..

      Your mind is going to temp you for you to become identified with it. There is nothing you can do but observe it. Resisting it will continue the mind activity. I'm not trying to spew ideas out there, my words have no ultimate truth either. Truth is experience through direct experience! 7.b is correct though, do see a counselor if you must!

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